Pesanan Buat Diri Sendiri

*Jangan cerita masalah dekat orang lain.

*Jangan banyak soal -diam jea

*Jangan sibuk2 nak cerita pasal orang lain

*Jangan terlalu beria-ria

*Jangan terlalu berharap

Follow the flow- Hadap jea apa yang datang dengam tenang

Bahagiakan diri sendiri

Waiting For someone propose me

Ku mulai menerima dia dan berharap dia lah cinta terakhir untukku. Tak nak dh main2  cinta untuk just nk rasa dicintai...
Ku impikan diriku akan jadi yang halal untuk dia.

Tapi ku tak pasti adakah matlamat cinta dia sama dgn ku... Ku cuba permudahkan jalan utk bersama dia di masa hadapan...
Tapi masih ada halangan yg tidak mampu ku redah bila ia melibatkan family.

Dulu ku reject lelaki sebab parents tak suka ku... I make a move tapi sakit sikit laa... Masa tu ku budak2 lagi... Tak lah serius sangat bab cinta2 nie...

I'm scared if i need make the same decision like before by leaving him for his good...seems like his mother also not really like me... Tapi ku cuba utk pertahankan relationship nie sehingga bila i don't know yet... Just follow the flow...

I just thinking, kalau relationship nie tak kemana... Maybe ku tak akan mencuba utk pertaruhakan hati utk bercinta lagi... During this time, i keep cure my heart everyday when having such bad things...

But... I'm not sure until when i can to fix it.
Masa semakin berjalan... Usia makin meningkat...jika penantian ini hanyalah sia2...ku relakan ia terhenti disini... Betul cakap orang penantian suatu penyiksaan... Now i feel it so much... Sometimes full of hope...sometimes totally lost hope and so sad...

His come back

Dah 2 thn berlalu...dia kembali meraih cintaku kembali... Just come to hospital by bus to meet me...its too sweet...

Rasa awkward tapi suka... Rindu senyuman dy... Walaupun disaat itu rasa mcm dia bukan lg orang yang sama seperti HZ yang ku kenal dulu...

Sekarang dia lebih mesra,peramah... Dan...pandai buat lawak... Terus berhubung smpai sekarang... Yang lgi menarik kerja pun ditempat yang sama...

Mulai menyulam cinta dan kasih sayang...ku cuba lupakan moment dia pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri... I give him a second chance...

Ku mengharapkan hubungan kali ini lebih serius memandangkan usiaku pn sudah meningkat. I looking for my future husband not only boyfriend.

Please leave my life and my mind..

I don't know why...  sometimes I feel confusing with my feeling..  I realize that he has nothing special but I don't know why I like to see u whether you're juz same like other... 

But.....  I will throw away this feeling and you  from my life 4ever..

You're nothing to me... 

I don't want any guys who are not mine  disturbing my heart anymore...

I'm not perfect person

I don't know what i've done to them but still several of them feel unsatisfy with me. Every people around me juz look me as someone very happy and always smile but behide all the cheerful person they are not know me very well...  I keep everything that I feel alone...  crying alone... sick alone....  juz me...

Perlukah ada perasaan cemburu..

Sebelum nie kalau cemburu pn maybe akn da bg pasangan couple,  adik - beradik,... but.. nie first time kut dgr da jgak org yg cemburu bila kawan diorg rapat dgn orang lain...  naik takut rasa nk rapat dgn sesapa... da jea yg x senang..  kalau sbb eila diorg bermasam muka...  better eila jauhkn diri dri jea...  sesetgh org kata kita x bleh hidup sendirian means without best friends.. but seriously eila jalani hidup dgn baik dgn semua org... not too close.. not too far...  juz nice jea...  I love all of my friends...

Kem transformasi integrasi MPP IPMa 2014

3 hari 2 mlm berkampung di Mawaddah Resort Chalet and Training Village dari 10 - 12 Oktober 2014... Hari ini adalah hari yg terakhir..  agak sedih + letih...  amazing programs and very benefial to all of us...