Ku mulai menerima dia dan berharap dia lah cinta terakhir untukku. Tak nak dh main2 cinta untuk just nk rasa dicintai...
Ku impikan diriku akan jadi yang halal untuk dia.
Tapi ku tak pasti adakah matlamat cinta dia sama dgn ku... Ku cuba permudahkan jalan utk bersama dia di masa hadapan...
Tapi masih ada halangan yg tidak mampu ku redah bila ia melibatkan family.
Dulu ku reject lelaki sebab parents tak suka ku... I make a move tapi sakit sikit laa... Masa tu ku budak2 lagi... Tak lah serius sangat bab cinta2 nie...
I'm scared if i need make the same decision like before by leaving him for his good...seems like his mother also not really like me... Tapi ku cuba utk pertahankan relationship nie sehingga bila i don't know yet... Just follow the flow...
I just thinking, kalau relationship nie tak kemana... Maybe ku tak akan mencuba utk pertaruhakan hati utk bercinta lagi... During this time, i keep cure my heart everyday when having such bad things...
But... I'm not sure until when i can to fix it.
Masa semakin berjalan... Usia makin meningkat...jika penantian ini hanyalah sia2...ku relakan ia terhenti disini... Betul cakap orang penantian suatu penyiksaan... Now i feel it so much... Sometimes full of hope...sometimes totally lost hope and so sad...
